ELLI is HER name

SORRY Call me a bitch for all i care.. coz i dun bitch ard other pple life like e way u do,causing hurts etc.. Dun tink i kip quiet all tis while means i knw nuthing! I knw pretty well wat u hav been up to.. it's not tat i dun appreciate.. it's jst tat wat ure doing has gone way out of hand.. FINE, BY ALL MEANS.. IM E BITCH DEN WAT ARE U? Tink abt tat u immature FOOL! Ure clever than me but u doing tis proves tat ure nuthing better like all those minahs! (sorry dun get offended readers) Ending tis entry, life has been tis way to me.. do wateva u wan tat has to do w me, and i promise tat wateva u said,done.. u'll get double of e stuffs that im undergoing.. sorry im cursing pple.. but i cant take it if ure doing things behind my back and being extremely good infront of me..

my heart broken into millions pieces! tat day on 25may08.. my heart broke bcoz of dem..at 1st it was a msg from Mr A tat made me cried,myself had a tiff w Mr H and lastly, i was missing Mr S .. i listen to a mly song Mr S wanted me to listen.. it broke my hart,it really did.. while Mr A, wanted to leave me.. Mr H,he scolded me.. mayb all tis were my swit mistakes.. yes my worse mistakes.. Both my elder and younger sister saw hw bad i was crying my hart out.. i cried so bad tat i cldnt breathe.. it hurts! my heart hurts..i cried frm 2300hrs till 0345hrs,imagine hw swollen my eyes wld b? the nxt day was MONDY.. a colleague asked me,"elly wat's wrong w ur eyes?" all i replied,"Ytd i cry?" I DO DESERVE ALL THIS HURT AND MISERY!

This is Our story.. Abt e special r'ship we had.. From the moment we knew each other on 5 March 2008 AND the moment we 1st met up on 15 march 2008 till ytd, 22 May 2008 at 2145hrs wen evrything went wrong .. I dont knw wat i wld do w/o u.. as days goes by, thr's no doubt that i wld b missing you! i'll rmbr the memories i had w u.. evrywhr i may go, thr r bound e b memories abt u and i.. You once asked abt US wen we had a tiff, pls hold on to tis fantasy we both have! you once said that we were meant to be, u nvr fails to erase my worries.. I cherish the love tat is so tender which seems to exists only in our world.. but like wat i predicted tis fantasy wldnt last 4eva.. it's not bcoz i dun believe in our love, it's jst tat i dun trust myself.. YES, i do love you still, pls dun doubt it! You're precious but i didnt treasure you e way i shld have done.. Let your feelings out! tell me all my mistakes so tat i'm aware of my wrong doings.. im sorry for makingh

Hurt by reality )): Jst like a dear fwd, im down with the sadness,hurt and sorrows.. it's all due to matters of the heart.. Unlike my fwd, it doesnt only consist LOVE.. Yes, i've cried these few days; evry single tyme i tink of that conversation.. my heart breaks and to tink tat im losing someone so dear makes me cry my hart out! Once the person is gone, whr do i seek comfort? to whom can i be childish to? what shld i do? and yes, i've share tis with the guys my hart trusted most.. im not losing sumone i love or sumone whom wld b my future lover?! im losing someone i've knwn since forever! mayb tat person jst joking w me? all i hope is that it shld nvr come true; for i wld really miss tat person so much.. My exams are in 2 wks tyme .. and my brains are dead from all the pressure, stress, probs and emotions. i've got 3 paper to study which may seem easy to other teens.. but im in traineeship , stress that keeps coming frm skool ,wor

Survey by JULIANA Randomly remove one question from above,and add in your own question,make it a total of 20 questions, tag 8people in the list,list them out at the end of this post, notify them in theirchatbox that he/she had been tagged,and whoever does the tag will have blessings from all people! lets beginn.. 1) What are you doing now? in skool, doing progress test and this thingy (: 2) What do you want the most now ? Tat guy! CASH! shopping spree.. hehes 3) Who is the person you trust most ? NO one.. i dun knw la.. 4) Do you think you have enough confidence ? nope.. too shy got la.. 5) Do you want to score well in all your test ? yupyup.. but have been stress out tat i failed one common test! almost 'kena' DEBAR! 6) Do you believe seeing a rainbow after the rain ? seen it b4.. but it has no meaning.. 7) What is your goal for this year ? to completed TRAINEESHIP with flying colours! 8) What do you usually do when you am at home? im hardly at home..

the day - I ---- and ------- ytd, i was happy aft so long.. sumone i knw nvr fails to brighten up my day! i was abt to stand on my two feets aft my biggest fall tat made me unble to make myself to stand tall,proud! but later tat nite, i fell dwn and landed on my face! i was hurt, i have tots of even killing myself.. i had another emotional breakdwn but tis tyme tat sumone wasnt ard.. so i cried at another shoulders tat i knwn for less den a mth.. i have many emotional breakdwn,actually too many.. i can jst stop toking w anyone,day-dreams and thr u'll see me crying but of coz if im able, i wont hab cried infront of u.. i hab enuff of jst crying my hart out.. it hurts well it hurts loving HIM and missing HIM wen all i want is jst to be near HIM.. e warmth being under HIS arms, to be kissed evry few sec and those cuddly hugs tat i get from HIM.. im confused! who do i really want? i dun wan risk losing any.. YES,im being selfish but pls giv me tyme!! i wan tat guy.. and e other guy

it's me , elly (: i brought sumthing cute! and im loving it! an Angel plus a fireman! my frens scolded me for not buying for dem! well,i got no cash w me.. i wld buy for them i promise kata LOVE-LOVE (: its CUTE,cute.. i loike it.. wanna see? wait a moment okies.. *nw im toking crap* i got kittens at home! i love my kittens cute yet notty! i guess love isnt a big deal to me anymre..im moving on already! i'll change, find e rite mr. loverboy and stick w him! i dun bother much anymre.. jst stay by my side as a fwd 4 nw coz im in no need of lovers.. yet again i wld break hearts! SSTTOOOPP! no mre things abt love! wanna c my kittens.. 3 females 1 male (: And here, my kittens are ?! (: okay lets see.. from FAR left: Blcknose, fatty BOMB2, skinni and Boboy

my point of view - 130508 i dun knw wat to say in tis entry.. jst wanna let people knw tat im hurt.. i regretted my actions.. i wanna change bck to OLD geeky,nerdy me.. tat GOOD me! im sorry tat i offended people,curse people,cheating on guys,breaking his hart! seriously, i regret w all my hart! i wont b updating often.. u wont b able to hear from me either ways.. im gonna reduce spending tyme w guys,dates,new guys.. im gonna follow e advice my dear abg helmi said.. study n work cums in as 1st- e most important! followed up by 2nd- Family and fwds...3rd-calming myself (brains,body,nerves,soul mainly HEART!) last 4th wld b - guys,LOVE! change of topics im miting up w a dear fwd aft so long..hope evrything run smoothly tml aft work! fatiin,i gt so many to talk abt frm work - love - family evens fwds.. i cant wait la sey! hahas (: hey babe if u read tis.. pls dun bring ur guy okay?! hahas (: hopefully i wont ccry in front of u.. malu sey gitu!? fatiin reminds me of MONA tat used

these pics said most of my tots n feelings (:

do i deserve all tis? 100508 why did i went wrong? i'll wonder.. i gonna miss evrything.. y does it seems tat evrything i do nvr fails to works.. im hurting inside.. i wanna let evrything out but by doing so, i'll hurt those who are too dear to my heart.. in me, e weakest element is my heart.. it's fragile tats breaks within seconds ; tears would gather at the brink of these eyes which soon flows down these cheeks where kisses were once planted upon by the beloved ones in life.. in my own world, what i've been seeking is jst e simplest things yet e hardest to grab hold of! what's im made of are jst my feelings which nvr fails to display themselves openly to eyes of whom i know or even unknown eyes that are jst wondering abt those tears tat are shed in front of them.. what do u seek in life? isit the same as i do? why do people judge oneself when they knows nothing abt tat particular person! gossips filled my ears,breaking my heart especially the one who started