ELLI is HER name

[ Sweet kan? (: kak wanie,hope u don't mind ] Firstly & Seriously, i envy kak Wanie & Hanafi ; the sweetest couples down at CSC. Just by reading kak wanie's blog and her latest photos of their outing so blew me away. And it reminds me so much of what we were to be back then. I miss those days when we were still courting each other and everything seems so sweet (: Oh well, in every relationship there are their own problems which we won't know about as an outsider. Tell me, isit possible to regain what was once lost?

It really didn't register in my head how people can change in an instance. There isn't any better way to express my tense-ness now at work & home. Couldn't people just freaking keep their mouths & attitude to themselves? Argh!! What a heartache.. I really don't understand ; what have i ever done to them that im treated as tho' i'm invisible. Please, i've got feelings for christ sake. FUCK IT, if this seem alittle too paranoid.

There's this uncle at my workplace that remind me so much of my ayah in his younger days when ayah was much fit and build. Oh how much i'm missing him, he had just undergo a major operation - bypass and now he's so much skinner now and he's having difficulties breathing when he lies down on the bed at night. Memories of when ayah was still so muscular and fit, my elder sister and myself will always wants to be around him and lie on his lap. and how he would be able to carry Belle and look after her while we are in jurong for the day. Now carrying lil' Belle will cause him feeling breathless. Ayah, i shall pray for you. i'll pray that you'll be like how you used to be then. i promise i'll be a good daughter, sister, wife and mother. Ya allah ya tuhanku. Jauhilah segala penyakit-penyakit dari ayahku. hambamu ni mohon bahawa ayahku sihat seperti dahulu. Amin.

Yesterday was the most tiring day of my life ever to be compared to the amount of hours that i work down at CSC. Oh my~ , i sorta took a off. yes i was not well and we took advantage of the rest day to have The Photoshoot that was to happen weeks back. Here how it went:- from 0700hours till 2300hrs. close to 18hours i guess, i was awake and my body was weak like nobody's business. before heading off to marina barrage which the pictures has to have abit of sunset lighting, there were so many things needed to be prepared. and im telling you its to the smallest detail! We brought the SHOES, 4cans of red bulls, 1litre worth of mineral water and 2snacks. after the whole photoshoot, we headed off to maleek's nigga house to have some pizzas (: And heading home sweet home, got some paddlepop rainbow and lastly we slept like a baby throughout.

"Can we pretend that goldfish in glass bowl are fairy godparents. I could really use a wish right now. " Okay, its about time for a new update entry but it wont be a long though. i dont want to crack my head for nothing. Oh my ~ have been so long. The YOG have already started. and Singapore just got their 1st medal which is a bronze medal. Today i cooked for break fast and it was daging masak kicap. but the worse thing is that no one in the house was fasting. and i've been working around the clock to earn enough for hari raya baju which is for us - three (: I dont know why but seeing dear composing songs is so making me want to do the same thing too. i dont want it to be seem that im trying hard to be someone like you. i just feel so hype seeing you in such a condition. and i really love you.

Okay , here's another quick update.. im heading off to work in maybe 15mins. National day is around the corner and im like working on that day itself. Yayness, double pay - even single minutes means alot as hari raya along the way and we kinda need more money in order not to over-spend and also keep in mind of belle's milk. Talking about National day, i remembered how it was celebrated like when i was in primary - all thanks to a bunch of kindergardens kiddos singging their heads off at the void deck. haha (; So what colour shall it be this year with my adorable lil' belle - first debut ??