On my way to work tis morning, i saw this couple boarding into the train w a stroller. As a female species, of coz i was attracted to the guy. only aft awhile, did it dawn to me abt e lil' girl in tat stroller shld b abt 2yrs old. and the couple was pretty much border-line twenties. will i ever be an unwedded mother? Eventhough im not in any serious r'ship; will i ever follow my mom & sisters footsteps? im afraid. Everyting jst seems in place, from the way i've changed. im afraid. thinking abt having a family; well im still too young yet immature and naive. who wld b my MR.? whr will i live in? how many kids wld thr b? but often, i tried to throw those thoughts away. due to "u'll nvr knw wen yr last day wld b?" too much sins are done compared to the good deeds done. LOVE on my b'half is tat it'll nvr last 4eva. haix
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in just a day. I've lost two guys. i didn't know tat separation would really hurts. i broke harts yet again. they bid their goodbyes, leaving me in tears and memories tat are to fond to be erase! my goodbye with him; at that playground,i had my last kiss n last hug. sang our 1st song tat breaks my entire hart. talking about our days together that were filled with love,sadness and arguments. we met in a decent way; we ended in a decent way too GOODBYE. my goodbye with he; didnt had any last moments. but i'll remember our memories our favourite meeting location; whr the moon itself witness our love. those sweet messages that brought a smile to my face every morning. i wont discard the items involve in our r'ship GOODBYE. Love can be both hurtful and magical. Often being in love is like on cloud nine, and getting hurt is like your heart is being shattered in million of pieces. Love doesn't end halfway through; you got to work hard to redee
Shld i remove all memories i had w u? SAY, yr tee, yr nametag ,tat mini fireman's jacket, and lastly e ring u brought me days ago? those nites we spent under e moonlight. i dont know.i want them w me, BUT.. whr hav it gone to? "It started with a 'hi elli'.. and it'll never end with a 'goodbye elli'. i promise you." i suppose it's better like this for yr sake. yr happiness and yr heart. Goodbye. i wish.. haix. well goodbye, pls dont go bck 2 old u.
To: mr loverboy. I feel in love w u almost instantly; it was all due to my clumsiness. yes, i'm a gal who falls in love easily. u're a guy w a kind hart; who promise me __________, wen we aren't an item. When i asked u "nvr to break my hart" evryting changes. u told me, "dont hope too much frm him and dont b too compromise w him as i wld regret it". Immediately i cried and at tat very moment,the love i had for u shattered into bits and pieces. I DUN LOVE YOU ANYMRE!! To:mr nottyBOY. Y ou called me ytd. your call broke my heart! u begged me to 4giv u b4 u told me yr news abt 'HER' . for 4 mths, i've loved u while u prayed,hoped tat yr ex wld return by yr side. wat abt me!? wat am i 2 u? you promised not to let a tear-drop roll dwn my cheeks! yet i cried in the office. i Forgive u. To: Mr hawt fireman. im sorry for breaking yr hart. pls 4giv me! i knw im asking too much aft doing u enuff hurt and hartbreaks. mayb wat yr fwds said is true which
im lost in this darkness ;in my own world. i've lost myself. i guess this is meant to be. serve me right for doing all those sins, bad deeds. im sorry. i've lost myself in that game called LOVE. i've broke those hearts to deserve this. my heart's hurting. im sorry. i guess, i got to blame myself. pls leave me alone. im tired; tired of crying! PS: im gone. im dead.
TO: my dearest Mr. S , Mr. A & Mr. H im sorry. i nid a break from all tis commotions. i've tire out myself from doing all tis scandalism,feeling guilty wen im w each n evryone of u! Giv me a break! between 2wks - 2mths. let me tink. let me focus on stuffs i have to. other den u guys. i wan my life bck. i wan my feedom bck. but i do nid sumone. i'll tink abt it. i'll choose e rite guy 4 my hart. im sorry. i cant do tis anymre. im sorry!
i met a new fwd! **a fwd whose a younger brother to my sister fwd. and i knw him aft a chatroom b4 but didnt kip contact. wat a small world!** yup, we are fwds on the safe side w no love-thingy. he's a great guy one tat brightens my day like my hawt fireman. it's easy to talk to guys on my behalf. i cant stop rmbring abt e other day w hawt fireman in the library. the msn web-cam chat w fatiin was so fun. i miss her loads.. hiax.. life is getting hard by day. i have to make a choice between these 3 guys. mr A, mr S n mr H? but i cant. i dun wanna lose my freedom jst yet and i cant lose focus on my goals which were coz of my family's situations. work has been fun. has been late to work for 3 days straight! hav 2 b early tml. promise is a promise. hiax. i miss my galfwds, thr wld b a gathering tml but i tot mayb one day i'll mit up w all of dem. sorry girls, i gotta work my ass off. i promise we'll meet up soon.
my thoughts have gone haywire like a socket on fire. my heart's broken; i fell flat on my face yet again. A two-faced bitch. i am one who can melts hearts with my simple-self and one who can breaks hearts with a simple touch. unlike those people who judge me as, they will never know what's really inside of my heart! Isit hatred or love that i feel among the guys thats in my life? what i've said are what they judge me as. how about my heart? this heart that breaks every moment its owner break a guy heart. what about my feelings? feelings that was pure and true which people could only see it as though there's nothing in me. how can one judge only based on the appearance? i know i've done too many sins that would take a whole life time to atone. it was my mistake,my fault and i could only blame myself. this is life, nothing would be perfect and there's no way we could have life our way. it's HIM who knows what lies ahead us. i'll pray to HIM. i'll b