ELLI is HER name

Today's CMS day , and the theme of the month is Xmas. But sadly, im not attending due to a family outing with dearest saiful and isabelle. We head over to Northpoint, Yishun, to catch 'Strawberry Shortcake' Show. As that was belle's cartoon character even before she was born. Upon reaching, saiful decided to head over to Levis to get a new pair of black jeans to go along with his latest jacket-to-be. We were sort of late for the show that we didn't managed to get a front row for belle. Still we sit through the show with belle switching seats on either my shoulders and saiful's shoulders. After the show, we head out to wendy's for lunch. Belle fell alseep halfway and we thought we should catch the show again and make sure this time round, belle got a seat. For myself, i managed to video the whole show that was about 30mins. Overall experience: Priceless.

Well, It's Hari Raya Haji. Therefore i wore my pink baju kurong to work as apart of the celebration that was happening in my head. Upon reaching CSC, i feel so awkward as i was the only one in traditional outfit. But soon, i was relived thanks to Hedayah for she too is in a pink baju kurong. Boy, was i glad! *Aik,Macam dah janji dalam mimpi!* After Work,dearest saiful decided to catch HP7 as it was just released on the day itself. Soon enough, he came in a cab and we headed over to The Cathay to catch the 11.55PM Show. And i was like,' Oh dear, Paisehnye pakai macam ni turun town! elly, Stop it ehk!' And Overall the movie was Cool! And that saiful is going to book the book due to anticipation of waiting for the next sequel that will be release next year in July!

- Love Songs or should i say songs these days, lyricist always have a way to somehow hit certain nerves that causes memories flashback. I'm so sorry but i didn't mean to abandon you, my dear blog . I've been busy with work and yar, It have been tough lately.

[ That's Belle bashing her piece of cake. and strawberry shortcake is her (: ] The Party was small and adequate. Dear decided to let her blow her candle off at 0956hours; the time she was born a year ago (: shortly after that we prepared ourselves to get down to the gig - Da'RapShoCase . baby sister met us up here in toa payoh before heading out to raffles place which was at the Arthouse. The whole gig was Cool & Awee-some to the max! apart from the fact that it was my first-ever Hiphop Gig (: and i was like , " Look , i know that girl from my school" and "hey, i like this song" + " Fatin, cute-cute kan the guys. Lol (: " And afterwhich we headed out, settle for mac as dinner and went back to Bedok - Baby sister' place. Watched ' My Name Is Khan ' i guess i did cried alittle and personally, i haven't seen a Hindi movie like forever.

heyhey readers. Current location : Work - CSC . and yar, so i was bored thus here i am (: In the next 3weeks time, Belle's official 1year old party and Yung Sz is performing at Da'RapShowCase. Which both falls on the 16th Oct 2010, Saturday and i'm taking off (: I'm so having the time of my life working here but i just need a better paying job hence i have a growing child. Anyway, i'm so waiting in anticipation for the 3rd Oct 2010, Sunday. Wohoo, can't wait to Camwhore (: Miss my family so much.

First of all , Selamat Hari Raya People (: Understood that is a far beyond due. There ain't much pictures this year. but wait till this 3rd Oct 2010. Jyeah , seriously i can't wait . i miss my dad and i really want meet my crazy looney little baby sister thats staying with her guy. All of the sudden , i had the urge to listen to Justin Bieber's songs . oh boy, memories that flashes back by - scene by scene . Say that J.B might be corny for a 15year old kid? Still that cute face and the voice.. And how far he have gone in the music industry and how much he sound different now. Thus far, the best songs that i like so much are : -Baby ft Ludacris. - Somebody to love ft Usher. -One Less Lonely. It's late, i should hit the sack now. sweet dreams (:

[ Sweet kan? (: kak wanie,hope u don't mind ] Firstly & Seriously, i envy kak Wanie & Hanafi ; the sweetest couples down at CSC. Just by reading kak wanie's blog and her latest photos of their outing so blew me away. And it reminds me so much of what we were to be back then. I miss those days when we were still courting each other and everything seems so sweet (: Oh well, in every relationship there are their own problems which we won't know about as an outsider. Tell me, isit possible to regain what was once lost?

It really didn't register in my head how people can change in an instance. There isn't any better way to express my tense-ness now at work & home. Couldn't people just freaking keep their mouths & attitude to themselves? Argh!! What a heartache.. I really don't understand ; what have i ever done to them that im treated as tho' i'm invisible. Please, i've got feelings for christ sake. FUCK IT, if this seem alittle too paranoid.

There's this uncle at my workplace that remind me so much of my ayah in his younger days when ayah was much fit and build. Oh how much i'm missing him, he had just undergo a major operation - bypass and now he's so much skinner now and he's having difficulties breathing when he lies down on the bed at night. Memories of when ayah was still so muscular and fit, my elder sister and myself will always wants to be around him and lie on his lap. and how he would be able to carry Belle and look after her while we are in jurong for the day. Now carrying lil' Belle will cause him feeling breathless. Ayah, i shall pray for you. i'll pray that you'll be like how you used to be then. i promise i'll be a good daughter, sister, wife and mother. Ya allah ya tuhanku. Jauhilah segala penyakit-penyakit dari ayahku. hambamu ni mohon bahawa ayahku sihat seperti dahulu. Amin.

Yesterday was the most tiring day of my life ever to be compared to the amount of hours that i work down at CSC. Oh my~ , i sorta took a off. yes i was not well and we took advantage of the rest day to have The Photoshoot that was to happen weeks back. Here how it went:- from 0700hours till 2300hrs. close to 18hours i guess, i was awake and my body was weak like nobody's business. before heading off to marina barrage which the pictures has to have abit of sunset lighting, there were so many things needed to be prepared. and im telling you its to the smallest detail! We brought the SHOES, 4cans of red bulls, 1litre worth of mineral water and 2snacks. after the whole photoshoot, we headed off to maleek's nigga house to have some pizzas (: And heading home sweet home, got some paddlepop rainbow and lastly we slept like a baby throughout.

"Can we pretend that goldfish in glass bowl are fairy godparents. I could really use a wish right now. " Okay, its about time for a new update entry but it wont be a long though. i dont want to crack my head for nothing. Oh my ~ have been so long. The YOG have already started. and Singapore just got their 1st medal which is a bronze medal. Today i cooked for break fast and it was daging masak kicap. but the worse thing is that no one in the house was fasting. and i've been working around the clock to earn enough for hari raya baju which is for us - three (: I dont know why but seeing dear composing songs is so making me want to do the same thing too. i dont want it to be seem that im trying hard to be someone like you. i just feel so hype seeing you in such a condition. and i really love you.

Okay , here's another quick update.. im heading off to work in maybe 15mins. National day is around the corner and im like working on that day itself. Yayness, double pay - even single minutes means alot as hari raya along the way and we kinda need more money in order not to over-spend and also keep in mind of belle's milk. Talking about National day, i remembered how it was celebrated like when i was in primary - all thanks to a bunch of kindergardens kiddos singging their heads off at the void deck. haha (; So what colour shall it be this year with my adorable lil' belle - first debut ??

Okay, a very quick post - 10minutes break (: its our 2nd year being together, nothing much to celebrate. well, i spend my day at work ; full shift and dear spend his days asleep. My 2nd sister posted this so i edited it ; A women was made from a man's rib , not his feet to be walked on, nor his head to be superior over; thus she came from his side to be his companion, under his arm to be protected, and next to his heart to be loved ♥

This is a very late entry. I've been working non-stop till 2am in the morning for the world cups nights. and i don't know if i should glad that its over or sad that there won't be any extra income. Gosh all those lack of sleep i suffered. These past few days i've been so using the camera. missing my creative side i suppose and boy am i loving my lastest DP in facebook. Lovebug is somewhat hiring me to be his rusty photographer for some kinda album. well, thats it for now. nights people.

Good Afternoon :) Guess what, i just woke up - i know very ironic for a mother of a little 8months old. haha. i've been working for the World Cups nights - Sumpah i'm freaking tired and body's aching like nobody's business. Guess for my family's sake, i just gotta earn alil' more. Every single of day working down at CSC is like a count down to my resignation date which is still uncertain though. And only on last tuesday, did i realize that Ramadan is on this coming 11 august 2010 and thats like next month! And im like going to be fast, hoping will be able to for the whole month because unlike last year, i didnt fast not even a day. On monday, we went to catch Twilight Saga : Esclipe at The Cathay. i was like Oh My. Jacob is so so hot and Edward's like so cool! Haha. Overall for the movie is super great and seriously worth the tickets. These days, alot of cool movie are out and about. And im always like -"bby, i nak gi tengok boleh tak?" plus i'

Good Evening. just a short update for now (: Im here at work again but its only for 30mintues. and today , working like hell ; 12pm till 2am. my elder sister recommend me to be her replacement when she goes for maternity leave. OMG, im like so hyped-up about it but at the same time im sadden that im have to leave CSC - the Coolest & Coldest place ever! Im so going to miss the people here.

Good Afternoon, i suppose. its have been quite sometime since i updated. the blog have been collecting dusts. So much has happened within these past few weeks. I've been staying at jurong, my sister house to assist in caring for my dad who just went for a mayor bypass operation. which my daughter is staying with her father down at toa payoh and my work is at toa payoh too. therefore, i can say im not a superwomen because my body is aching really bad. currently im at work, having 1hour break ; not eating as pay not in yet. Working at CSC have been a blast. Only that the pay is not enough for me and my little family, therefore finding a full time/permanent job is really tough! hopefully (:Lovebug comes round to send whatever that's cooking over at his place. It was his birthday was on the 18th of june. sadly i was working full shift. but the best thing was that i brought him a little chocolate cupcake to celebrate when the clock strike 12midnight. afterwhich we were to mustafa fo

Okay. i just came back from jurong. and its like 5.25pm , works starts at 6pm and im like WTF. having the a tummyache and the family which is saiful & co are missing in action. gotta rush to CSC soon. i so hate things been in such a mess. dad's having an operation this coming monday. shit, i haven't been praying too. i really need some kick in the butt. if only i know who to express this feelings in me. i wont be filled with all the doubts in the world.

Like the above mention title - im stress to the core! Dad's in the hospital and is going to have a major operation end of this week or next week. and saiful is in the hospital , due to the pressure on his childhood operation scar. Gosh, i can't at two place at one time. i have to be at jurong but at the same time, i gotta be by saiful's side. OMG! Work is okay, still looking for better paying jobs out there. The Bloody 'RP on Scotts ' didn't got back . so most probably i didn't get the job , nevermind la. The Courses that i went to the other day was so great. met so many great people who im so in contact with especially mr andy , a great friend . super tired and stress. don't know what to do, feeling so lost.

This one whole week has been very tiring . Because i got courses to attend down at jurong - infomatics and i had to work later in the night . and thank god that , monday and thursday off . otherwise , i'll turn to a zombie . whatever that i've learnt in the courses are so Wow ! i like the instructor , he teaches all the nessesary stuffs that i as a new comer in the working indrusty should know of . im so happy that i got a reply from a hotel that i sent my resume to . Wohoo ! i gotta pray hard to get the job . who don't want wok in Royal Plaza on Scotts ! now i got to sleep if possible , i gotta leave house at 7.45am and course will end at 6pm . after which i have to reach work place by 7pm . *i've drank almost 6cans of redbull within 1week . wicky or what (: *

Hello. Okay , It has been almost 2weeks since i've updated . so this is going to be a long one (: I'm pissed with CSC ! the place is alright , the people are cool & the effing Management sucks to the core ! Today's my off-day and ' wha'tha fuck ' Tomorrow i got baby appointment and i don't want work and the effing manager said , " im a mother too - appointments are in the morning. " the management can go fuck , im still ain't coming to work . and good luck on the 1st week of may , for im not free . Im doing my random job search, this place can't make it . i'll leave soon but for the time being , im stuck down with the management. Argh! Praying that i'll find a admin , receptionist or maybe a front-desk ( hotel-line) job soon. I want to learn how to make-up! but where to take up course ? and i want to lose some pounds ): sadly i have a big tummy which is super ugly with the marks from pregnancy . Missing my cousins so much (

Adorable right? haha (: plus she looks like a baby boy here . Okay , its way too early to blog . anyway there's nothing to update as well ; Just wanted to have a change of songs . Check my FB ; Cafeworld , Happy Aquarium & Hotel City . Added some people down at CSC . Isabelle & Saiful are still fast asleep (ILYSM) Missing People in life ; cussins , girlfriends , schoolmates . Work is okay , wish could work even longer hours but sadly my team leader is a part-timer and he's schooling as well . till then, bye

Updating just abit today. Its going to rain while im getting ready for work! Urghh, hate it this way ): Thank you all for voting for isabelle at the BabyChic Contest , tho' she might not win. will submit her photos again if possible (: and will upload her latest pictures at FB and here soon (: Bye, till then.

Currently at home , so freaking confused on what time should i be back at CSC . Jesus Christ. having a bad tummyache . Learning Shakespeare . In a way only i can understand what i write.

Mood: Effing Bored ): Time: 1258hours It's already the last day of march. i find myself reminiscing our past memories how it first started out. Those days, i bet he remembers it too. ONEyear.eightMONTHS.ONEweek& threeDAYS - dated 21 th July 2008 . yesterday, i was actually some-what composing my first verse which ironically is rapping (: Tho' then in our early stage of our relationship , a verse was composed some-what a song . which was never complete.

Mood of the day : Confused Time: 1254hours On a lunch break for 2hours which to be back by 1400hours. No idea of what-so-ever to eat , should i go off without eating? For every moment left , please make it a happy one? Feeling so lost , oh Star please guide me out of this dark night. what should i do? Wait till sunrise which i'm not sure of. *should i dwell on it or feel bliss*

Changed my skin for the last time , if god's willing. No more bright colours for me now. i wanna endure and never give up but i got to be strong first. Please rely on me ): Sadly, it will never happen . The two songs best symbolise my feelings at this current state of self. * who's gonna be there now? who will listen ? *

I want this pair of Nike Skinny Dunk ): too bad that my birthday have pass or else i could wish for it . Down at work , they are so fixing the agents to a team leader which like so " whata'fuck ". The management real suck big time! come on , im like working on 6hours or less at work with the pay at $4 per hour? im like having a little girl at home who's milk powder is like almost $60 plus and it could last her only 2 weeks? Bloody Mary! Stress to the max , been getting quite a few counselling letters from work too. careless mistakes and didn't listen proper to the address being said by customers. Dear is so going NS this coming June and im like so have to find a stable full-time. Being 19 and a mother too , tiring & hard. Just wanna break down and cry but for Isabelle's sake , i shouldn't ):

"The minute i heard my first love song i started looking for you not knowing how blind that was Lovers don't finally meet somewhere they're in each other all along " before the blog more rusty and dusty, i've started working at CSC for KFC (: it's great fun working there. the people are friendly eventhough some maybe are alittle weird. made new friends and the poem above was from a book , a friend borrowed. But what freaks me out is that there have been nights when dear said i was taking orders in my sleep and yes, i admit that i do dream of it too. guess im too engrossed in the job (: lol.

GOODBYE dearest blog. wont be back, period ): ** whatever will be, will be The good, the bad Just Breathe - Vanessa Hudgens **

Life can never be peaceful , for crap and shit happen . It's up to an individual if they can tolerate such events . Whether they have the courage to face reality or run till they fall and continue running . Love is a Strength that one hold , it may slip yet it's still in your will to let it surface again . One can hate , dislike but they can never not love another . It comes in all sort of form and in different kind of stages known as Puppy Love , First Love , True Love etc . In Life , you will need Time to start your run and in that run , you will find Love and Hate . The rest is up to you . To choose and to lead your run .

This adorable little angel is finally "Botak" xD Now she looks more like a Solider in Pink. Belle have learn so much and her voice is so massive. She's one loudspeaker. Thanks to all dear friends for the birthday wishes (: it made my day so much brighter. Yesterday at about this timing , i had a Pizza for a birthday cake and later in the evening , i got a LightCheese Cake from His mother. awww.. Well , Good Night and adieus .

It's 1.13am And jyeah~ I'm officially 9teen as of now . Happy Birthday to Me and My youngest brother , Aminor Daniel 12 :p i got Pizza as a Birthday Cake , Thank You dear (: And some chocolates to fatter me more . Lol . I'm alil' upset that im not able to be back at home to celebrate with the little "Toyol" Well , i Love you people back in Jurong ((:

Life is so filled with endless doubts, gossips etc. and it's one fact that every human of every race have to go through. Im freaking BORED. and nothing to talk about. jyeah XD