ELLI is HER name

Its autumn. The leaves has turn brownish && soon they will gradually fall to the surface of the earth ; leaving the tree bare && bold. It's almost end of October. End of the festive month. So much has happened in life which i can never forget. This year is alil' too hurtful for year. Cried too many times during the day && late at night. Memories with whomever , bitter or sweet ; I'll cherish && remember till I've turn senile (: . Moments that I've regret are just alil' too late ; Moments that are too fond to let go . Let it be between me && GOD . Will it be too late to seek for forgiveness ? Will it be to late to start afresh ? Will it be too late for me to change ? Isit too late to learn ? I'm beginning do what's best for both me && bf. A'lil advice from my 2nd sister made me realize her point of wanting me && bf to work. I believe that my 1st sister too , wants the best for me as I'm he

Damn . Cried in the office . Colleagues saw me shedding tears on my desk . I've realized my mistake , to sum it up . A whole load of mistakes . Im sorry . Am at lost . i don't know what to do ? saying sorry is kinda late already . you hate me ! Can i be forgiven ? will you forgive me ? Gosh . i miss the good times . i want turn back time yet keep bf by my side . Bf , i wish i could tell you . i wish you would be here by my side . i so need your hugs && kisses . Bf , where are you when im needing you most ??

Updated. My Open House in Lieu of the Hari Raya Celebration was a total disappointment! invited a whole bunch of people over especially colleagues , ex-jwss [4T1] && outside peeps. Only 3 of my colleagues came over, 5 of my schoolmates of jwss dropped by. Damn. There were enough good foods around. Haix. was pretty upsetting. Mami was angry ; Told us sisters , "Not to do any Open House next year , way too tiring && lack of $$ " Yesterday was our 3rd monthsary. was quite annoyed by BF. Haix. Dear BF, thats wasn't how i wanted us to celebrate our 3rd monthsary. but alas, the night before couldn't been better. i bought a cake to celebrate over at BF's place with his family. ended up sleeping at BF's Place. to be able to cuddle up with BF before dozing off. Ily. Woke up, able to see BF smiling away. just hope next month would be another eventful day to remember. Ily, imy.

has been awhile . since last updated . Raya has been Fcuked Up. with family , DAMN ! with Bf , hardly have the time . Me Busy w work && so is he . Outfit of the year was in Black , 2nd sister insists . 1st day , went to my Mak Long 's place. finally met up with cussy , ira && nadd . missing my guy cussy , tam . After 20yrs (if not mistaken) we went to ayah's side of the fam , was something special tho' wasn't able to see Pak Busu's Fam . 4rd day , Fcuked up. Mom was frust didnt follow us went house-hopping . went to tam's granny place . again he wasnt there , miss u dude . After which went over to Abg Yacob's place then went down to Yishun , Abg Yacob's siblings . Since then , there wasn't anymore house-hopping at all. stayed at home like ---- . I thanked Bf for 101008 . will remember that . tho' promise to be at location at 12.30pm , i ended up meeting him at 2.30pm++ . Its was really something to remind me of other than o