#02 - Feelings

No words could sum up this feelings in me. It feels like there a rubberband around my heart and it hurts really bad.

Last night and early this morning. Only kept tears flowing down this face, nothing else matter but to have him all to myself; call me selfish, self-center. I want his loyal attention; I miss being pampered, I miss the random outings, memories we used to have.

I'm desperate to be happy and be loved again. I'm disappointed to have such minimal space in his heart. I would do anything in the world to win him back, even if he isn't the guy I fell for back in 2008 anymore. Bcz I loved him then and I still am loving him, there's never another ever since the first movie date.

Even if memories of the past can't be recall, give me the permission to make new ones with him. I don't wanna lose anything and I don't wanna get this sickening painful feeling in my heart anymore.

Ya'allah, please show me a way back in his heart. One way or the other, I need him back. I need him to remember being himself. Please give him the strength and show him the right path. Show me if this marriage is meant to be. Amin~

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