ELLI is HER name

love. Finding a job is a pain in the ass. Boyfriend is really getting on my nerves. Family has been around but being a pain too. Things are really getting out of hand. im at a lost to everything. Lost my job earlier this month - regret awhole lot. now being so freaking pathetic having to go to CDC for help. im lost. im in a huge mess. i don't how to help myself. i don't know what else to do. im freaking lost. OH GOD~ help me.

Life's really unpredictable. While love's quite a disappointment. Causing such misery & chaos. The month of February is pretty much very Suck-ish. Apart from all those memorable events, such as my birthday - Valentine's Day etc.  My birthday - spent the day at dearest's house. got a huge new teddy as my present (: which Dearest named " Mr-Paws". My birthday cake is made of Peppermint.  Valentine's - Dearest got me a Bouquet of roses made out of - Red, Pink & Blue . And a box of chocolates. A day at Dearest's house - we made Chicken Baked Rice ( Our way ). Well , it was loads of fun despite the quarrels in between the cooking (: Plus everyone loves it.  Another day at Dearest's house - we made Pizza with a base of a Mickey Mouse's head (: it was a delicious treat. This month , i've been a bad girl. Messing around with my Family. Now i'm filled with guilt and lost. Just can't figure out what to do, so that odd will meet. I...

Tomorrow's the day - i would be legal in the eyes of law. Lol. will be out with dearest around SG.  He's the MasterMind who planned the celebration of the 8TEEN Bdae (: i want do something for him. i want him back in his culture - HipHop. Yes, only to some & me - he raps. i miss seeing him all dressed-up , hyped-up with his swagger and stuffs - like the first day. to those who knows him, should know what i mean.

life is getting hard.  for those who have heard the news, i guess that best believe i'll miss all of u. Do contact me. i want to do a final get-together before anything. i miss u girlfriends.