ELLI is HER name

Mood: Effing Bored ): Time: 1258hours It's already the last day of march. i find myself reminiscing our past memories how it first started out. Those days, i bet he remembers it too. ONEyear.eightMONTHS.ONEweek& threeDAYS - dated 21 th July 2008 . yesterday, i was actually some-what composing my first verse which ironically is rapping (: Tho' then in our early stage of our relationship , a verse was composed some-what a song . which was never complete.

Mood of the day : Confused Time: 1254hours On a lunch break for 2hours which to be back by 1400hours. No idea of what-so-ever to eat , should i go off without eating? For every moment left , please make it a happy one? Feeling so lost , oh Star please guide me out of this dark night. what should i do? Wait till sunrise which i'm not sure of. *should i dwell on it or feel bliss*

Changed my skin for the last time , if god's willing. No more bright colours for me now. i wanna endure and never give up but i got to be strong first. Please rely on me ): Sadly, it will never happen . The two songs best symbolise my feelings at this current state of self. * who's gonna be there now? who will listen ? *

I want this pair of Nike Skinny Dunk ): too bad that my birthday have pass or else i could wish for it . Down at work , they are so fixing the agents to a team leader which like so " whata'fuck ". The management real suck big time! come on , im like working on 6hours or less at work with the pay at $4 per hour? im like having a little girl at home who's milk powder is like almost $60 plus and it could last her only 2 weeks? Bloody Mary! Stress to the max , been getting quite a few counselling letters from work too. careless mistakes and didn't listen proper to the address being said by customers. Dear is so going NS this coming June and im like so have to find a stable full-time. Being 19 and a mother too , tiring & hard. Just wanna break down and cry but for Isabelle's sake , i shouldn't ):

"The minute i heard my first love song i started looking for you not knowing how blind that was Lovers don't finally meet somewhere they're in each other all along " before the blog more rusty and dusty, i've started working at CSC for KFC (: it's great fun working there. the people are friendly eventhough some maybe are alittle weird. made new friends and the poem above was from a book , a friend borrowed. But what freaks me out is that there have been nights when dear said i was taking orders in my sleep and yes, i admit that i do dream of it too. guess im too engrossed in the job (: lol.