ELLI is HER name

i used to thought to myself that i could live without a man in my life . After meeting you , i couldn't last a day without your hugs && kisses . Boy , im so in love with you ! I'm sorry that im always tripping , cursing && swearing almost every single day . Boy , Please spare me for your lecture , your scolding && your nagging . I know you meant well , i know you care alot . Forgive me for all I've cause to hurt you indirectly or intentionally . Thank you for being patient with me despite the fact that i'm always stubborn , crappy , irritating && annoying . For that i love you ! This heart loves you alot . This mind apologies for breaking your heart time && again . This soul yearns for your touch . Don't make me regret my choice . Je T'aime . Happy 4th Monthsary , Saiful Bahri .

Congrats to Bf's lil' brother for archiving Express && his goal to enter Singapore Sport School . I'm proud of you Khairuddin Bin Omar . Such a happy news to be heard . Bf must be proud of his lil' brother as much as i am . The feeling is so strong to leave me speechless when his mom called during my lunch time . If i have enough cash , i'll get him something . Yesterday , called my Form Teacher . Asking about the debarment thingy . and thanked god , i wasn't debar or else what i wanted to archive will be so out of reach . Even so , i already had plans on what to do in time to come . Had a tiff with Bf in the wee morning . Shucks ! Well what the heck , this isn't like the first time we ever had an arguement . If i've known , i'll never had done such a thing to jeopardize your job . Call me a fool for not listening to you . Je t'aime . Boy , we'll see what will happen between us tomorrow ?!

“When there is a great doubt, there is great awakening; small doubt, small awakening; no doubt, no awakening” - C. william Doubts ? Boy . i wish i could tell you . im afraid , you're stress up with work && everything else . i don't want to bother you too much . i know you can't take too stress , you'll break down . i am sorry ! Boy. i promised i won't leave , i promised i'll be here . i'll keep this painful secret all to myself . Boy , Ja T'aime .

i miss my dudes && bitches! I'm seriously gonna do a gathering for my class. missing so many of them. Damn, how i wish i have the money to do so. Met Shaiful , Amirul && Azfar coincidentally at the MRT on Wednesday. t hen met Lina at ECP on Saturday. DAMN! i miss those people! I love you BF. I'll be there , i promise. Enjoyed your company alongside with your hugs && kisses PLUS our cheeky-ness. - 21th July 2008 and counting. -

Its autumn. The leaves has turn brownish && soon they will gradually fall to the surface of the earth ; leaving the tree bare && bold. It's almost end of October. End of the festive month. So much has happened in life which i can never forget. This year is alil' too hurtful for year. Cried too many times during the day && late at night. Memories with whomever , bitter or sweet ; I'll cherish && remember till I've turn senile (: . Moments that I've regret are just alil' too late ; Moments that are too fond to let go . Let it be between me && GOD . Will it be too late to seek for forgiveness ? Will it be to late to start afresh ? Will it be too late for me to change ? Isit too late to learn ? I'm beginning do what's best for both me && bf. A'lil advice from my 2nd sister made me realize her point of wanting me && bf to work. I believe that my 1st sister too , wants the best for me as I'm he...

Damn . Cried in the office . Colleagues saw me shedding tears on my desk . I've realized my mistake , to sum it up . A whole load of mistakes . Im sorry . Am at lost . i don't know what to do ? saying sorry is kinda late already . you hate me ! Can i be forgiven ? will you forgive me ? Gosh . i miss the good times . i want turn back time yet keep bf by my side . Bf , i wish i could tell you . i wish you would be here by my side . i so need your hugs && kisses . Bf , where are you when im needing you most ??

Updated. My Open House in Lieu of the Hari Raya Celebration was a total disappointment! invited a whole bunch of people over especially colleagues , ex-jwss [4T1] && outside peeps. Only 3 of my colleagues came over, 5 of my schoolmates of jwss dropped by. Damn. There were enough good foods around. Haix. was pretty upsetting. Mami was angry ; Told us sisters , "Not to do any Open House next year , way too tiring && lack of $$ " Yesterday was our 3rd monthsary. was quite annoyed by BF. Haix. Dear BF, thats wasn't how i wanted us to celebrate our 3rd monthsary. but alas, the night before couldn't been better. i bought a cake to celebrate over at BF's place with his family. ended up sleeping at BF's Place. to be able to cuddle up with BF before dozing off. Ily. Woke up, able to see BF smiling away. just hope next month would be another eventful day to remember. Ily, imy.